I stand by what I said before: I think you need to focus on your mental health and healing before pursuing major business endeavors. Like Starla, I don't believe you truly want to go through with it in a tangible way. I think you want to keep chasing your own tail and commiserating, rather than taking proactive measures toward anything—whether it's business or otherwise—due to a fear of failure. I believe you think it's easier to stay stuck than to try moving forward, so you sabotage yourself and make excuses through any means necessary.
What you truly need is help unpacking these issues with a social worker, therapist, doctor, or another type of helping professional who can guide you in healing in a way that enables you to make progress in your life. Right now, you are the one stopping yourself and keeping yourself stuck. It's not about the name; it's never been about the name. The joke post about a nonsensical cluster of words as a potential company brand proves that. I'm not saying this to demonize you; I genuinely believe you're someone who is hurting and in need of assistance, not someone who is purposely malicious or trolling.
My advice is to seek help and get to the root of what is stopping you from moving forward and keeping you stuck. It’s not about the name or the T-shirt business. As I said before, I think you're afraid of failure, which keeps you stuck. The real task is figuring out ways to get unstuck and healing the hurt in your heart that’s making you so afraid of failure. Failure is a part of life—it happens. We've all faced it. I’ve faced it. I got fired from three different jobs in my teens and early twenties. I know what it's like to feel unemployed and stuck, just as you're feeling now.
But the important thing is to figure out your next steps in a tangible and concrete way. In your case, that means addressing things at an internal level, in my professional opinion. I have faith in you, and I hope you'll give yourself the grace to have faith in yourself as well. You deserve better than the way you're treating yourself.
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