Re: Considering changing my name/ some possible overthinking
in reply to a message by RoxStar
Yes, of course I'm technically connected to my name, that's why I said I don't *feel* connected to it. Starting from scratch (or near from scratch) is a bit of the point for me, as I didn't grow up in a healthy environment. I started going by Edie during a time when I separated from that and developed more autonomy, so I feel more "connected" to that in terms of accomplishments, what loved ones I kept or met call me by, etc. Which is why I'd like to keep that as a nn, but I'm sure (have been for awhile) I don't want to keep my full name. I'm not planning or changing it next month- or even next year- I'd just like to explore options.
And I have plenty of personal reasons for changing it from Edina, that have nothing to do with famous/fictional associations or medical abbreviations. Those ones I listed are some hesitations I have about exclusively going by Edie, like I do now. And yeah, I did overthink a lot of them- but I see/have used both E.D.s a lot already in my entry level classes. It's not a big deal, it didn't put me off going by it; it just kind of adds to the lack of formality for me. I still second-guess myself a lot due to how I was raised- so me feeling sure about not keeping my first name says a lot, but overthinking a lot of little reasons about something I like doesn't. I was just curious if those little things had any weight, not if I'm actually wrong about what I stated to be uncomfortable with.
And I have plenty of personal reasons for changing it from Edina, that have nothing to do with famous/fictional associations or medical abbreviations. Those ones I listed are some hesitations I have about exclusively going by Edie, like I do now. And yeah, I did overthink a lot of them- but I see/have used both E.D.s a lot already in my entry level classes. It's not a big deal, it didn't put me off going by it; it just kind of adds to the lack of formality for me. I still second-guess myself a lot due to how I was raised- so me feeling sure about not keeping my first name says a lot, but overthinking a lot of little reasons about something I like doesn't. I was just curious if those little things had any weight, not if I'm actually wrong about what I stated to be uncomfortable with.